Physical, Mental, Emotional
I’m on quite a kick, trying to philosphize whether or not we choose to be born.
Stuck in the middle between the joker and a clown,
I’ve heard the arguments
“I didn’t choose to be born.”
“How could you bring a child into this?”
but what if you did choose to be born?
What if you had a choice to be right here, right now?
What would that mean?
I’m exploring this line of thought and it’s changing everything
If I accept that from before I formed my first “flesh” memory, I existed
AND I chose this “flesh mech”
(Like a character creator in any mmo)
then I …. I am responsible for everything
but if I did not chose this then well I’m not responsible
What does this mean?
A.) I can change the world, I chose this
B.) I am a victim of the circumstance of my birth
I know it’s not black and white
but it leans towards TRUE.
Yes I choose this body, this flesh, this star sign, this DNA, this synaptic structure
I chose to be in pain right now
I chose a flesh mech without participation to emotional processing
THERE ARE THREE types of labour
Moving mountains by strength and force of will
Engineering the best way to move that montain
every blade of grass
whose hope was to grow high enough to seed another generation,
who planted roots in the hillside
that enjoys the sun, shade, and it’s place on the mountain
is the force against the hopes of others
Pyshopaths are detached from their emotions and others
for my mech,
well it’s an exposed nerve
I feel for the trees, the plants, the bugs
all are one in the end
(TO CARE FOR)
to sympathize with
to empathize with
is the heaviest stone for me to lift
I feel it all
no alchol can numb the pain
no drug can fix the design
I chose this mech
This is not my soul’s first pass through this game
It is my current ambition that it is my last
and that my wife comes with me into the after (beyond) ife
where we both rejoin the source.