Short stories and articles of thought

I don’t plot, I brew.

There are two ends of the spectrum when it comes to writers. Plotters: those who in fine detail outline the order of events within and outside of their narrative. And Pantsers those who sit down and go on a journey with their characters as it happens. Every writer falls closer to one side.

Then there are

saints like

Cheyanne A Lepka

Who created a chart akin to DnD alignment

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I’m a True Plantser.

And this is the process I use.

Which is both frustrating and exciting.

I start with the problem and a question what would happen if?

Goblins used guns, Miners discover a dragon egg and abandon their contract, A duke is on a hunting expedition to slay a dragon,

Exciting because I don’t know how my stories will end or what turns they will take.

Frustrating because I thought it was going one way but no it went another.

Fiction unlike reality, or this blog, has to make sense

So I have a loose outline, but I have to keep the characters fidelity high. Which means that if a character is about to act out of character just so I can have everyone hit their marks and move the story back to the outlined path, I won’t go there. Sometimes that means my characters demand I scale a vertical cliff or walk through a dangerous marsh rather than stick to the simple well laid path.

When I hit these difficult patches, I do a lot of thinking. What do I need to do now? And I work though in my head over a dozen or two dozen unwritten paths, until that eureka moment hits and the wall is scalable and entertaining. Then I do that.

Though I am still a little sore that I was unable to use pirates in my last story because. I had them roughly outlined, their motivations, weapons, etc etc. But the characters on stage demanded more screen time and had a far more interesting tale to write. SO I put those pirates back in the cupboard and when I get a chance I’ll see if I can use them to spice up another story.

Oh man I am going to have to rewrite this post a few times to get the words as they should be.

Oh well,

Much Love

HngyHngyHppo

If you found yourself in this chart and want to argue. I’ll be in the comments below.

Turning Inspiration into dedication.

1% inspiration. 99% perspiration.

  • -Einstein

Let’s talk about energy, time, knowledge, and resources(money usually)

First you were excited about all the things you learned. You had all the energy in the world and nothing seemed like work. You were too young to even have a concept of work itself. Life was just a series of let me try this now. Now this. This way. Oh that’s new let me try that. You had the time, the energy, but had no concept of what knowledge you needed or what money was.

Then childhood was over and puberty started. And suddenly you knew everything, you found yourself surrounded on all sides by the incompetence of those in authority around you.

Parent’s just don’t understand

-Will Smith

Yet even though you knew everything you were still learning at a rapid pace. You would discard poor information for better information without a struggle, you had no concept of ego but figured this was the way to do things from now on. That was in keeping with your self concept of knowing everything. You had the energy. The knowledge basics. The time though that was kept from you by obligations like school and fun Resources either went to affluence or to enjoying your time.

It’s in this stage I was sold one of the biggest lies of my life. That “Real Life” began after high-school. Then I got that diploma, Turns out your still a child till your thirty. Then your not an adult until…. UNTIL… UNTIL. It just keeps going. Your either a child or an elder there is never an in-between.

If you take anything away from this. Take this “High School” is “Real Life”. If you wait for real life to start because you think it has a different rule set not only will you be disappointed but you’ll be behind the game. The only real differences are that your body may not be finished cooking til your older and that things can be different once you have money. But the personality you leave High school with will be your personality for just about ever. So take the mission of getting the personality you want.

Now- back to the Now

You have found that you have enough energy and time to go to work forty hours, sometimes sixty. And if your lucky in this late stage capitalist nightmare then perhaps your banking a decent amount of resources. But in all likely hood you are spending what little excess you have on inflating your happiness to put up with your work schedule. Congratulations, you don’t have the time or energy, and even if you have the resources you’ve lost the knowledge.

1% inspiration 99% perspiration

-Einstein

The knowledge you’ve lost is that you don’t know shit. Motivational life coaches and other carpet baggers will sell you the dream. One quick trick to fix your broken life. You pay the resources and get a high of inspiration but the high fades and so you chase another hit from a different dream seller.

The problem is your Ego. You’ve been successful for so long in the status quo that secretly you don’t want to change a thing. Because if you did, honestly, you would have. You’ve met the basic needs of Maslow’s hierarchy and while you strive to complete the second tier before you can reach the top. You’ve been holding yourself back.

If you can work sixty hours for a paycheck then why can’t you work for yourself six more?

What do I want to do?

Who am I?

Where do I want to be?

Ask the right questions and fucking accept the answers. I don’t want to write books but I have to. I don’t want to work in a warehouse but I need to. These are the things that make me … well myself. The more I stay true to how I am the more energy I seem to find. The less resources I need to spend on happiness. The more open I am to receiving knowledge that helps me without having it conflict with what I already have in practice.

In Maslow’s hierarchy Self-actualization is at the top. To be taken care of after all other concerns are addressed. But you’ll be spinning your wheels if you don’t answer that need first.

Ask the right questions and accept whatever the answers are

By doing that you will create the energy,

You master the time,

If you know how to use google the knowledge is at your beck and call.

You may not have the resources, but that means you need to ask smaller questions.

Not just because you are going to need to sweat doesn’t mean that it has to be something that isn’t inherently fun.

With Love,

HngyHngyHppo

Ownership of Time

Everyone has 164 hours a week. Except for me. How did I gain more?

It’s not about sliding in a extra hour here and there. Winding back to clock only to have it catch up later. It’s about divesting that time

We each have a week, seven days. Most work 5 for wages and two for debt. Debts to family, faith, and fun. I work 3 nights for wages, hard labor which has had a better effect on my physique than any workout regiment I have tried and quit. Then I work three days behind the keyboard, til my brain is tapped out. Spend the next two days paying my debts. That’s right I have eight days a week but the real miracle is that by varying my daily focus from physical, mental, and spiritual. I actually have two weeks in a seven day period…

I want you to remember what you did last week. Odds are you only remember a few things, significant and insignificant. I was late to work on Tuesday, Thursday I had a second cup of coffee before first break which is unusual. You had just as much time as me but like water the memory of that time has slipped from your hand. So while we have had the same amount of time. I’ve actually had twice the experience because I remember more of the experience.

Whats best is that since I am removed from the tasks associated with one of my weeks for an extended period of time. It give me time to analyze and evaluate what I’ve learned and how I’ve spent that time. So that by the time my hard labor is done I have a new plan to attack my mental labor. When my mental labor is under completion, I can contemplate my spiritual labor.

How can I best serve my family friends and faith?

Then as my spiritual labor comes to a close,

How can I improve upon my mental labor?

I hope that the word keeps this a secret, because honestly we are in competition and I am to win.

Victory being young men with reading speeds of close to 1,000 words per minute.

Take care, and remember its

how much time you’ve spent getting experience

It’s about how much experience you can get out of time.

With love,

HngyHngyHppo

Never accept Responsibility without Authority!

I learned this lesson ages ago. I was a lifeguard for a popular water park. I held a position of responsibility for the safety of guest, was a face that represented the park and helped shape the guests experience.

It was a great responsibility. During my two summers I “rescued” a small child and an elderly man whose panic had kept them under water and in danger. But the average day was entirely uneventful and that was a blessing.

However, their existed a class of guests referred to as “season passers”. Some parents rather than have their kids be bored for summer or send them away to camp purchased season passes for their kids who would come to the park once or twice a week, more if the children wanted to master the wave machine (a boogeyboard surf jet). Since the life guards and other staff saw these faces so often, we knew amongst ourselves who was trouble and who wasn’t.

But we only had the illusion of authority.

If the rules were broken, exiting a tube early, cutting in lines, raft stashing, or harassing/taunting life guards who can’t leave their station. Our only course of action would be to blow our whistles and hope that they stopped. But doing so raises awareness of the other guests who are busy enjoying their day at the park. If we wanted to eject someone from the park, the offense must have been bad but also and most importantly the offending party must be 100% compliant and freely agreed to standby the lifeguards station ’til our roving position could come to the station and escort the guests to leave. But if they ran… then they were gone forever. Stories were common they waited for ten minutes then just walked away and I couldn’t leave my station so UGH!.

This is responsibility without authority.

As a lifeguard we had the authority to execute the primary responsibility of guest safety. “No, I’m sorry your to short to ride this buddy.” “Excuse me I’m going to have to ask that you gentlemen leave before I have security escort you out.” or we could jump into the water and “rescue” a 4 foot tall child who doesn’t realize the water is 3 feet deep. We had that authority.

We also had the responsibility to enforce the rules. The rules ain’t there to ruin peoples fun, some of the rides can be dangerous if you are out of your tube and you could hurt yourself or others. Most injuries result from breaking the rules or running carelessly. Climbing and diving from a feature that was aesthetic and not for diving.

Which is why in my second year I taught the new generation, to recognize the season passers and to turn a blind eye to their antics. Because rules or broken in inches, every time a season passer gets away with breaking a rule because the life guard didn’t see it. They assume that if they had been called out it would have meant trouble.

BUT what was important to teach the lifeguards was that if a season passer was called out on a minor rule violation and they realized that “hey the lifeguard can’t leave. I’ll be out of the park and back tomorrow they won’t even remember what I did if they are here too.” leads to major rules violations because now they know for certain their is no penalty for breaking the rules. It’s better to let them think they are getting away with something rather than to expose the truth that they could get away with everything.

Because eventually the summer would end and if they were breaking the rules by inches then hopefully they won’t have caused harm to themselves or others. But if they broke the rules by miles, someone would get hurt.

I knew then that I could not in the future accept a responsibility without the authority to make sure it happens.

Ask yourself do you have the authority to enforce the responsibilities you’ve taken.

Are you responsible for hiring candidates? Do you have the authority to negotiate pay scales?

Are you responsible for meeting the overnight’s production schedule? Do you have the authority to hire staff and use company resources?

Are you responsible for leading a team of sailors through an extended maintenance period on the ship’s diesel engine? Is it within your authority to use command resources to incentivize complaince or dole out reprimands for non compliance? No, the answer is almost always no. The military does have the threat of Non-Judaical punishment but that is extremely rare. No, the military gets things done in a similar fashion to the free world, based on the illusion of authority not it’s actual existence.

It is America’s respect for the illusion of authority that is the root answer as to why drivers in America follow the rules of the road and stop at red lights. I hope we never lose that respect. But I hope you go into the future with the knowledge that if you accept a responsibility without the authority than your as effective as a goat being lead to the alter tasked with making the rain. Either you get lucky and it rains before your burnt or you don’t and are offered up as an appeasement sacrifice.

Much love,

HngyHngyHppo

Sonnet of oath, action, and guilt

What sense is duty?

Bound to action from another’s word:

By thoughts only freedom thinks so selfly,

My vessel beats and breaks to stir:

for I gave to you, my promise,

My arms act upon the world without thought,

To shatter enemies as frail now as sculpted ice.

My arms act, without doubt, head trapped or caught,

This motion’s end is not of my desire.

You called for my hand therefore,

Your soul should be not without consequence of trial.

Knowing this, why is it my own heart lifting sins commanded by corps.

Freely my oath was gave without pause or rapt.

Freely then trepidatiously now kept.

What SEN/se IS/ duTY

bounD/ to ACT/ion FRO/ anoTHER/’s WORD

thOUGHTS/ onLY/ freeDOM/ ThinKS/ selfLY

my VES/sel BEATS/ and BREAKS/ to STIR

gave TO/ you, MY/ promISE/

my ARMS/ ac-T/ upON/ the WORLD/ withOUT/ thOUGHT

to SHAT/ter WALL/s Ce/menTED/ of ICE

my ARMS/ ac-T/ ; he-AD/ traPPED/ or CAUGHT

this MO/tion’s END/ is NOT/ of MY/ deSIRE

You CAL/led FOR/ my HAND/ thereFORE

youR/ sOUL/ shOULD/ be NOT/ withOUT/ conSE/quaNCE/ of TRIAL

KnowING/ this, WHY/ is IT/ my OWN/ heART/ liFT/ing SINS/ comMAND/ed by CORPS

FreeLY/ my OATH/ was GAVE/ withOUT/ pauSE/ or RAPT

FreeLY/ then TREP/iDA/tiousLY/ ne-OW/ k-EPT

To shatter ENemIEs fORTtresses Once Strong as FRAGile as ice.

to SHAT/ter WALL/s Ce/menTED/ of ICE

Above is a sonnet I composed, The top is the final version the bottom is the work in progress.

As a mechanic not a poet. I can take any system apart and but it together anew.

Hope you enjoyed this,

With love,

HngyHngyHppo

Don’t forget to stroke my ego by sharing this with your boyfriend, leaving a like, and begin stalking me at a reasonable distance

I thought I had it figured out

For my daily bread, I move boxes. I stack them, I drive a standing forklift around a warehouse and lifting and stacking boxes. Heavy boxes, Light boxes, Over the shoulder, From under the Knee.

It’s one of those inglorious jobs that needs to get done.

It sounds easy on the surface and it is rather not a difficult cognitive task. It is a physically demanding task to lift and stack at minimum 100 boxes of various weights 8 oz to 50 lbs within 60 minutes. Currently I’m pulling 140 per hour but If I want to be up there with the best I need to pull 200 per hour as an average. That is a lot of bending and lifting, forwarded planing, and stacking.

But It’s brutal on the body to do this for 8 hours a night, or as with the recent month 12+ hours a night. Blessed as I am that I took the job as part time and I have had enough days for recovery, I can’t help but notice that I have hit a wall around 140. When the newbs complain about soreness I remind them to supplement protein that in order to get faster they will need to get stronger. Whey is great for recovery and animal for building muscle.

The other day I couldn’t sleep because I was craving for protein so badly. Nine raising cane’s chicken fingers later and I was able to sleep. That next work day Mr. G complained that he was sore from yesterday and I told him how I had to eat even more protein than usual. But this got me thinking was I doing this thing right.

When you don’t know what to do or how to get better the best advice is not from someone who is doing that. People have a well documented bias (dunning kruger effect), that after they have achieved proficiency of skill they will not be able to effective relate information to those lacking. So armed with a specific question I went to the guy who has been stacking consistently 200+ for at least 2 yrs without injury or incident. FYI If you just push yourself you can reach 200 for about 6 to 9 months before you’ll throw your back out or can’t get out of bed and decide you need a new career.

HOW MUCH PROTEIN DO YOU EAT A DAY?

With a quick response, something that happens when that knowledge is always on the forefront of someone’s mind. Like what day is it. Useful and Present yes but not worth sharing.

I try for 1 gram per pound of body weight so….. 170.

And he’s gone back to pulling

I was eating three 20g, and trying to take an additional whey shake of 60g. For a total of 120g per day,

My weight 240 lbs.

I was only taking half. No wonder when I got to my writing day’s I was in fog.

I thought I had it figured

I was wrong.

I often am.

With Love,

HngyHngyHppo

How to do a Lyrical Breakdown

What is “Bad Guy” by Billie Eilish about?

That is what the thorn I was going to remove from my brain today but..

But while crafting that analysis and researching if anyone else has already created such a work, the reality that no one one the first three pages of google has anywhere near a decent analysis is a far greater thorn.

If you don’t understand the language of a song

then you are listening to this song

and if that is the case all you should concern yourself with is the mathematical patterns in the harmonics… the deviations in the scale and the chords used… phonetically you can ignore the lyrics

but if you think in the same language as the song be it Thai, Portuguese, Pigeon, or Engrish

then listening to that song whether you are actively paying attention or passively distracted is almost the same as having those lyrics as your own thoughts.

This is why lyrical analysis’s are important. If you don’t think in the language of the music then the song is gibberish

But if you do…

And you want to ask someone what these thoughts mean…

That is not an unreasonable request.

As with any Art there will always be at least three meanings.

The first is the Author’s intent

This song is about taking power in a relationship

The second is the Listener’s personal interpretation (in this case mine)

This is a song about sexual abuse and the victim trying to take control of their victimization by trying to convince themselves that they wanted it. While struggling with the shame of being both a victim of the abuse and being socially punished for attracting such abuse.

Then there is the general interpretation

using as much data as is possible what does this song mean to a typical Gen Z, Millennial, or the population at large. What culturally relevant shared experiences do these demographics have that would frame the piece of music in question?

This is the type of breakdown I was going to do…

I’m not because it bothers me more that either no one knows how to do this type of breakdown

and no one even bothered to even give out there own personal interpretation.

Because if I had a few Gen Z’er’s personal interpretation and a few Millennial interpretations plus the Artist’s intent then a general interpretation would be relatively easy for me to triangulate.

SO FINALLY

here is how you analysis a song with your personal interpretation

First let the audience know what the Artist’s intent was. This will build credibility for the argument that your personal interpretation is the correct one.

Now present your interpretation

“Bad Guy” is about the singer pretending to be meek and girly in order to attract strong men who have fragile ego’s and can’t handle a real powerful woman.

Then using the lyric’s provide evidence for your position.

If you are actually and objectively trying to answer the Question

What is “Bad Guy” by Billie Eilish about?

Then you will need to provide as many frames of reference as possible.

Gen X will see this song very differently than Gen Z

and then explain what it would mean to them and why

Gen X many of them might remember listening to Aqua’s “barbie girl” for the first time at their child’s birthday party and being horrified to hear their child singing along.

Baby Boomer’s haven’t heard this song

Millennial’s have an awkward position

and Gen Z likely knows about the Artist’s other works and how her process is not just herself but she comes from a musical family… which has impacted the shaping of her lyrics significantly. Billie Eilish is a master of her vocal craft but the source of her lyrics is highly collaborative.

that is the type of analysis I wanted to write but limited on the resource of time.

This is all I can offer at this point.

I tell you what though

If this post gets 100 likes before the end of August 2019

I will carve out the estimated 8-10 hours to do a proper analysis on

What is “Bad Guy” by Billie Eilish about?

Or leave a comment asking for an analysis of any song in the Engrish language and the first to get 10 likes I will give my personal interpretation on.

With Love,

Hngyhngyhppo