Creating Milestones that take less than a mile…

There are many terrible things about being a writer. My gripe today is about milestones and deadlines. While all of these are self imposed and I can change them tomorrow if i felt the need. It is important to use them.

I don’t like it but it is none the less important.

I started writing ages ago and never finished anything. Then in 2017 I was left with only one choice if I wanted to continue to be an entrepreneur and work for myself. I had to write. I don’t want to write… It is not the most enjoyable thing I spend my time doing.

But it is the only thing that I have enough resources and skill at that it was worth pursuing. Also it solved a huge problem in my life.

The lack of decent male orientated novella length pulp fiction. If penguin publishing was still commissioning new or similar series to the Trailsmen then I would never have picked up the pen and instead refined perhaps my programing and game design skills.

But they didn’t and here we are.

My first book took over a year for only about 42K words… I know that I should have been able to finish it sooner but I didn’t know how to do. My second book took six months and my third and best book so far took only four. I should be able to get a book done every three months at a pace of 8k a week and so my next book will be ready by the start of September.

What does this have to do with milestones well I found that these milestones work for me. 600 words take a break. Finish scene take a long break. Keep track of my progress towards my deadline am I behind, ahead of schedule, or right on target.

In school I’ve always been a do it at the last minute type and the fear of failure has been a good focus. But with no publisher and audience breathing down my neck for the next Song of Ice and Fire, I have to manufacture my own fear.

The first thing I do is increase the demanded production to much higher than I can handle. It’s overwhelming but I’ll try to get 8k words done today and another 8k words tomorrow and another 8k after that. I took an extra day off of my part time job that pays my full time bills so that I could have the day to write. This helps keep that pressure on… I enjoy work and the bills it pays. I now have to prove that taking that day was worth forfeiting the steady days pay in exchange for higher production on my novella.

If I’m successful at reaching my word count goals than this book 4 will be draft a month and a half before I expect to publish it. Allowing my more time to edit and apply wordcraft polish before I send her off to the editor. While at the same time will remind me of the extreme work flow that I’m capable of and draw ever closer to my goal of having four more quality novellas done before June of next year.

And gee I wish these words counted but they don’t this distraction has cost me 30 minutes I should be writing,

With love


Motivations of the Vox Day male hierarchy

The purpose of this article of thought is to explore and define the motivations of each  tier of the Vox male hierarchy.

Understanding what motivations each position is important because then it is easier to understand and predict how each position will act in a given situation.

From the bottom up.


Omegas’ primary concern is safety.

Omegas are defined by their exclusion from the hierarchy. They lack in personal hygiene and social skills sometimes by choice. If they smell bad or look threatening then people will leave them alone. If they are left alone then they are safe or safer from attacks by those in the group.

They can be keyboard warriors, behind the safety of anonymity, locked in their mothers basement. Now that they are in a safe space they can go above their Omega type and begin interacting. Unfortunately online social interactions lack the feedback systems of in person situations. This is why they can’t grow out of Omega habits that define them to the world.

But within the digital world where their primary concern is met (safety) they can flourish up the ranks of the hierarchy.

They can become a valued contributor or even moderator to a forum becoming a proxy Bravo.

They can participate in games as a Delta.

But this will not translate into the physical world and they will continue their Omega patterns. Primarily concerned with there own safety.


(Disclaimer as a Gamma this section may be poor. Leave a comment if you can help make this better.)

Gammas’ primary concern is pleasure.

Gammas seek the most pleasurable existence possible. That is why they erect their safe spaces. That is why they shy away from work that is uncomfortable. That is why they don’t care about the responsibilities of being the leader of an organization. They care about themselves and only produce and participate if they garner pleasurable rewards.

They are emotionally volatile because they enjoy the highs that come with it even if they have to suffer the GAMMA meltdowns that come.

They tend to be smarter because they will find the shortest route to pleasure and use their intelligence to further their enjoyment and minimize their discomfort. These shortcuts are as much their downfall as they are a key characteristic. Intelligence or knowledge seeking is often a pleasurable activity because of the dopamine release associated with it.

Now what isn’t pleasurable is reformation or abstinence from a behavior that is immediately pleasurable but has long-term consequences.

For instance destructive teasing. May feel good as they assert themselves over someone else but this is not in line with the long term goals of the other tiers.

Gamma’s live and die by

“What’s in it for me?”


Deltas’ primary concern is acceptance

Deltas are defined as the worker bees of the hierarchy. They are the foundation that gets the work done. Their desire is acceptance by the group. If they engage in teasing they are attempting the male ritual of acceptance through hazing, which I do not approve of.

At my bill paying job, we drive forklifts during breaks each persons individual forklift is parked at a central location for the duration of the break. If you’re the first one to take break you can expect that someone may unplug your battery pack or flip the switch that turns off your forklift. Now a Delta does this saying jokes on you. If you’re a Delta or a Bravo you’ll have a laugh and get them back later in the same way.

If your an Omega or Gamma, you will see this as a personal attack. Someone has messed with your personal Lift. They view this the same way a Delta or Bravo would if someone messed with their car.

Deltas understand the greater social context around this momentary inconvenience. Gammas and Omegas don’t.

What I find most ironic. Is that everyone should be inspecting their equipment every time they have left it unattended for more than five minutes. For safety. If their is a frayed wire or your battery needs charging an inspection now saves ten to twenty minutes later.

Deltas will work within the group and for the goals of the group as long as they are accepted. If a large group during lunch talks about a new show, sport, or other water-cooler type talk. Deltas will check out that show or sport so they can join in and keep their status.


Bravos’ primary concern is validation

Validation from below and above.

This is why Bravos implode when they take an Alpha role. Without a clear point for validation from above they will try to make everyone happy and succeed in making no one happy.

Bravos will spend more on status symbols to separate themselves and become envied by the Deltas below them. These fancy cars and nice suits garner envy from below and validate the choices they make.

Bravos are the sheep dogs of the group. They are tasked indirectly or directly to keep the Deltas and Gammas on task. (Omegas in an organization tend to work as contractors and don’t need managing. They need only a clear goal and role. Then to be left alone as long as they are fulfilling that.)

By keeping the workers on task or providing gains for the Alpha they expect validation in return. That what they are doing is important and they are good at it.

Because validation over acceptance is their primary motivator. They seek higher paying positions. They pay attention to social interactions so they can gain higher status. They modify their habits so they stay one step above Delta but without the shy away from the responsibility of an Alpha.


Alphas’ primary concern is Power

Seems simple enough but it is why they want that power that is the difference between the captain of the football team and the CEO of a Fortune five hundred company.

Alphas need Power in order to accomplish their mission.

Alphas have a mission and they seek power to accomplish that mission. Their missions can be broad bring glory and gold to Rome, end cyclic tribal warfare in Mongolia, or acquire wealth and power for the family. The missions can be specific win homecoming day game, play a full Dungeons and Dragons campaign, Take the boys out on the town. Their missions can be multi-layered like: become a professional basketball player, become president, or cure disease.

Drive to complete these missions are what attracts Deltas and Bravos to support an Alpha. Because the Alpha knows that he needs Power to accomplish his mission. His actions are in accordance with gaining more Power to accomplish his mission.

Take the Football captain. He needs the respect and envy of the Bravos and Deltas. He will date the Head Cheerleader because she occupies a position of power and he will have more respect from his men and the school. This respect is social currency he will spend to accomplish his mission.

He will work very hard at practice to inspire his men to work just as hard. He will study plays conveying relevant information to his teammates.

The strength of the Alpha as an Alpha is determined by the lengths he is willing to go to accomplish his mission. The more he does to further the accomplishment of the mission the greater an Alpha he is. Because he will inspire his Bravos to give more for the mission so they can be validated. The Deltas will be trying to keep pace with the Bravos. The Gammas see the rewards of cheerleader dates, glory, and they will suffer for the rewards being promised.

Without the hierarchy under him the Alpha is just an Omega with a mission.

After the mission is complete and the power has been consolidated the Alpha may fall into destructive Gamma behavior. Stoicism is the antidote to this. As well as finding a new mission.

If you enjoyed this article of thought you may want to check out

Vox day is a Gamma


Secret Kings

That’s all the thoughts I have on that matter for now.

With love,


Resistance through pain.

This has been inspired by two thorns.

A fantastic YouTube video by Storytellers

How To Be Creative: How an Artist Turns Pro

And my current flaring hemorrhoids

The video covers the subject of resistance. The resistance of doing anything but the creative work that you should be doing. Whether that is procrastination, fear, and/or anxiety that prevents you from starting or continuing.

What this hasn’t covered or mentioned is the resistance of being in physical pain.

Everyone has experienced at least a bad day when you haven’t had enough sleep. You’ve forgot to take your caffeine and you’ve got a headache that you know will rob you of the next few hours of work. Bruised and sore muscles.

We can get through our paying gigs just fine. Suffering through these aches and pains without a great loss to the man we are making dollars for. But then when we have the chance to work for ourselves … well … results may vary.

I’ve torn a muscle in my shoulder two hours into an eight hour shift during my first ninety days at a cardboard factory. It’s been two years and there is still of whisper of that muscle that hasn’t been reclaimed reminding me of that I’ve lifted and worked through a 7 on the Stanford Pain Scale. And I’ve experienced a certified 9 as reference.

Right now I’ve got a cough and a hemorrhoid that spikes my pain from 3 to 5. But here I am still getting work done. Tonight when I’m lifting in my warehouse job I might be between a 5 and 7 but that’s not going to stop me there.

So why does this pain stop me when I’m here?

Why then can’t I get work done, pages written, plots thickened, or characters killed, if I’m experiencing anything greater than a 4 on the pain scale?

Why isn’t this type of resistance discussed?

What really burns me through… is how I forget that I was ever in pain to begin with. I was sick last Friday and I couldn’t get more than a single page of a comic script transferred from storyboard to word. Then I spent all Saturday beating myself up about how I’ve wasted a twenty four hour period. Only to have a cough remind me that I was still sick and bring some form of validation for the choice I made.

I know at this point that even taking one day off is disaster to my time frames and deadlines. One day breeds two years and a decade later you’ll be just as unhappy with yourself as your unfinished or unstarted projects.

If your in pain but you do a quality 10%…

Try to be happy with that

rest and heal

Maybe tomorrow you’ll be able to do 15% or more.

But if you start doing 0% the resistance will only grow stronger and you’ll need to be at 110% before you start again.

Wishing you all good health,


Why Hank Pym’s Pocket tank is lighter than you think.

[Spoilers for Ant-Man and Captain America Civil War]

One of my favorite hobbies is retro justifying. Where you apply the logic of a universe to itself in order to justify the impossible and the illogical. This is because I grew up as a star trek fan. And if you don’t “fix” the logic holes your not invested in the Sci part of ¬† Sci-fi.

So onto Hank Pym’s pocket tank.

It’s established within universe that once Ant-Man shrinks down that he hits with the force of a full grown man. He has not lost an ounce of weight. That would mean that the tank Hank Pym carries around on a key-chain weighs about 68 tons. Hank Pym still looks in good shape for his age but I doubt he is hitting the gym hard enough to lift that.

Okay so my answer comes in two parts either may be 100% true or one my be false but if the other is true than the proof still holds.

  1. Hank Pym is and has intentionally or mistakenly lied about the properties of his Pym particles

    2.) Gravity is a property of the Quantum.

Gravity as a property of the Quantum is the easiest explanation since so little is understood about this fundamental force of the universe.

Hank Pym as a liar is far more likely IMHO. First piece of evidence is that if all his particles did was shrink the distance between particles. All you would need to do is apply the same method Edison used to invent the light-bulb. Which is probably the method that Cross attempts. The result of which is vastly different than the pym particle.

These are the properties of the Pym particle as we observe them in Ant-Man

The Pym particle violates the square-cube law.

The Pym particle and the cross particle both require a structure (suit or container) to operate “safely”.

The Pym particle unlike the cross particle is stable and does not leak or decay.

I think the solution to our tank problem is this. The way in which the Pym and cross particle function is that they do not only shrink the distance between particles but that they do this by constructing a lattice throughout the entire unit being shrunk. This lattice creates false particles and negates real particles. By creating false particles within the lattice Scott Lang doesn’t fly away when he is giant and hit by a breeze. Imagine that the Pym particles also can create a way to negate the properties of real particles. So when you shrink down a tank and have the intention that the tank weighs 68 tons to less than 2 ounces the Pym lattice suspends or negates 67.9999375 tons.

The cross particles are not stable and there lattice begins to decay after it is created. The Pym particles are static but manipulated by the regulator on the suit.

This solution fits the throwing disks as well. Since the throwing disk come in two varieties enlarging and shrinking.

The throwing disk after hitting a solid finds the border between the solid and the surrounding air and commences shrinking or enlarging.

This lattice may also act as a membrane allowing Scott Lang to breathe the same amount of oxygen a normal sized Paul Rudd would need. Very effect for when he is small but when he is large. This membrane would be unable to create enough “false” oxygen to feed his giant brain.

This membrane and lattice would also explain why that ugly dog is able to continue to live. Since the Pym membrane and lattice is stable, does not decay, and continually refreshes itself around the borders of its effected object, That ugly dog would ingest a normal amount of food for a dog but only have access to the amount needed for an ant.

TL;DR Hank Pym is a liar

the Pym particle doesn’t simply change the space between particles.

The Pym particle creates a magical lattice and membrane between the shrunk and the world in order to violate the laws of physics.

If you enjoyed this then you might want to read my take on Ready Player One and how the protagonists for both the movie and book are not the same person but work for their medium.

With love,