I don’t plot, I brew.

There are two ends of the spectrum when it comes to writers. Plotters: those who in fine detail outline the order of events within and outside of their narrative. And Pantsers those who sit down and go on a journey with their characters as it happens. Every writer falls closer to one side.

Then there are

saints like

Cheyanne A Lepka

Who created a chart akin to DnD alignment

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I’m a True Plantser.

And this is the process I use.

Which is both frustrating and exciting.

I start with the problem and a question what would happen if?

Goblins used guns, Miners discover a dragon egg and abandon their contract, A duke is on a hunting expedition to slay a dragon,

Exciting because I don’t know how my stories will end or what turns they will take.

Frustrating because I thought it was going one way but no it went another.

Fiction unlike reality, or this blog, has to make sense

So I have a loose outline, but I have to keep the characters fidelity high. Which means that if a character is about to act out of character just so I can have everyone hit their marks and move the story back to the outlined path, I won’t go there. Sometimes that means my characters demand I scale a vertical cliff or walk through a dangerous marsh rather than stick to the simple well laid path.

When I hit these difficult patches, I do a lot of thinking. What do I need to do now? And I work though in my head over a dozen or two dozen unwritten paths, until that eureka moment hits and the wall is scalable and entertaining. Then I do that.

Though I am still a little sore that I was unable to use pirates in my last story because. I had them roughly outlined, their motivations, weapons, etc etc. But the characters on stage demanded more screen time and had a far more interesting tale to write. SO I put those pirates back in the cupboard and when I get a chance I’ll see if I can use them to spice up another story.

Oh man I am going to have to rewrite this post a few times to get the words as they should be.

Oh well,

Much Love

HngyHngyHppo

If you found yourself in this chart and want to argue. I’ll be in the comments below.

Turning Inspiration into dedication.

1% inspiration. 99% perspiration.

  • -Einstein

Let’s talk about energy, time, knowledge, and resources(money usually)

First you were excited about all the things you learned. You had all the energy in the world and nothing seemed like work. You were too young to even have a concept of work itself. Life was just a series of let me try this now. Now this. This way. Oh that’s new let me try that. You had the time, the energy, but had no concept of what knowledge you needed or what money was.

Then childhood was over and puberty started. And suddenly you knew everything, you found yourself surrounded on all sides by the incompetence of those in authority around you.

Parent’s just don’t understand

-Will Smith

Yet even though you knew everything you were still learning at a rapid pace. You would discard poor information for better information without a struggle, you had no concept of ego but figured this was the way to do things from now on. That was in keeping with your self concept of knowing everything. You had the energy. The knowledge basics. The time though that was kept from you by obligations like school and fun Resources either went to affluence or to enjoying your time.

It’s in this stage I was sold one of the biggest lies of my life. That “Real Life” began after high-school. Then I got that diploma, Turns out your still a child till your thirty. Then your not an adult until…. UNTIL… UNTIL. It just keeps going. Your either a child or an elder there is never an in-between.

If you take anything away from this. Take this “High School” is “Real Life”. If you wait for real life to start because you think it has a different rule set not only will you be disappointed but you’ll be behind the game. The only real differences are that your body may not be finished cooking til your older and that things can be different once you have money. But the personality you leave High school with will be your personality for just about ever. So take the mission of getting the personality you want.

Now- back to the Now

You have found that you have enough energy and time to go to work forty hours, sometimes sixty. And if your lucky in this late stage capitalist nightmare then perhaps your banking a decent amount of resources. But in all likely hood you are spending what little excess you have on inflating your happiness to put up with your work schedule. Congratulations, you don’t have the time or energy, and even if you have the resources you’ve lost the knowledge.

1% inspiration 99% perspiration

-Einstein

The knowledge you’ve lost is that you don’t know shit. Motivational life coaches and other carpet baggers will sell you the dream. One quick trick to fix your broken life. You pay the resources and get a high of inspiration but the high fades and so you chase another hit from a different dream seller.

The problem is your Ego. You’ve been successful for so long in the status quo that secretly you don’t want to change a thing. Because if you did, honestly, you would have. You’ve met the basic needs of Maslow’s hierarchy and while you strive to complete the second tier before you can reach the top. You’ve been holding yourself back.

If you can work sixty hours for a paycheck then why can’t you work for yourself six more?

What do I want to do?

Who am I?

Where do I want to be?

Ask the right questions and fucking accept the answers. I don’t want to write books but I have to. I don’t want to work in a warehouse but I need to. These are the things that make me … well myself. The more I stay true to how I am the more energy I seem to find. The less resources I need to spend on happiness. The more open I am to receiving knowledge that helps me without having it conflict with what I already have in practice.

In Maslow’s hierarchy Self-actualization is at the top. To be taken care of after all other concerns are addressed. But you’ll be spinning your wheels if you don’t answer that need first.

Ask the right questions and accept whatever the answers are

By doing that you will create the energy,

You master the time,

If you know how to use google the knowledge is at your beck and call.

You may not have the resources, but that means you need to ask smaller questions.

Not just because you are going to need to sweat doesn’t mean that it has to be something that isn’t inherently fun.

With Love,

HngyHngyHppo

Sonnet of oath, action, and guilt

What sense is duty?

Bound to action from another’s word:

By thoughts only freedom thinks so selfly,

My vessel beats and breaks to stir:

for I gave to you, my promise,

My arms act upon the world without thought,

To shatter enemies as frail now as sculpted ice.

My arms act, without doubt, head trapped or caught,

This motion’s end is not of my desire.

You called for my hand therefore,

Your soul should be not without consequence of trial.

Knowing this, why is it my own heart lifting sins commanded by corps.

Freely my oath was gave without pause or rapt.

Freely then trepidatiously now kept.

What SEN/se IS/ duTY

bounD/ to ACT/ion FRO/ anoTHER/’s WORD

thOUGHTS/ onLY/ freeDOM/ ThinKS/ selfLY

my VES/sel BEATS/ and BREAKS/ to STIR

gave TO/ you, MY/ promISE/

my ARMS/ ac-T/ upON/ the WORLD/ withOUT/ thOUGHT

to SHAT/ter WALL/s Ce/menTED/ of ICE

my ARMS/ ac-T/ ; he-AD/ traPPED/ or CAUGHT

this MO/tion’s END/ is NOT/ of MY/ deSIRE

You CAL/led FOR/ my HAND/ thereFORE

youR/ sOUL/ shOULD/ be NOT/ withOUT/ conSE/quaNCE/ of TRIAL

KnowING/ this, WHY/ is IT/ my OWN/ heART/ liFT/ing SINS/ comMAND/ed by CORPS

FreeLY/ my OATH/ was GAVE/ withOUT/ pauSE/ or RAPT

FreeLY/ then TREP/iDA/tiousLY/ ne-OW/ k-EPT

To shatter ENemIEs fORTtresses Once Strong as FRAGile as ice.

to SHAT/ter WALL/s Ce/menTED/ of ICE

Above is a sonnet I composed, The top is the final version the bottom is the work in progress.

As a mechanic not a poet. I can take any system apart and but it together anew.

Hope you enjoyed this,

With love,

HngyHngyHppo

Don’t forget to stroke my ego by sharing this with your boyfriend, leaving a like, and begin stalking me at a reasonable distance

How to do a Lyrical Breakdown

What is “Bad Guy” by Billie Eilish about?

That is what the thorn I was going to remove from my brain today but..

But while crafting that analysis and researching if anyone else has already created such a work, the reality that no one one the first three pages of google has anywhere near a decent analysis is a far greater thorn.

If you don’t understand the language of a song

then you are listening to this song

and if that is the case all you should concern yourself with is the mathematical patterns in the harmonics… the deviations in the scale and the chords used… phonetically you can ignore the lyrics

but if you think in the same language as the song be it Thai, Portuguese, Pigeon, or Engrish

then listening to that song whether you are actively paying attention or passively distracted is almost the same as having those lyrics as your own thoughts.

This is why lyrical analysis’s are important. If you don’t think in the language of the music then the song is gibberish

But if you do…

And you want to ask someone what these thoughts mean…

That is not an unreasonable request.

As with any Art there will always be at least three meanings.

The first is the Author’s intent

This song is about taking power in a relationship

The second is the Listener’s personal interpretation (in this case mine)

This is a song about sexual abuse and the victim trying to take control of their victimization by trying to convince themselves that they wanted it. While struggling with the shame of being both a victim of the abuse and being socially punished for attracting such abuse.

Then there is the general interpretation

using as much data as is possible what does this song mean to a typical Gen Z, Millennial, or the population at large. What culturally relevant shared experiences do these demographics have that would frame the piece of music in question?

This is the type of breakdown I was going to do…

I’m not because it bothers me more that either no one knows how to do this type of breakdown

and no one even bothered to even give out there own personal interpretation.

Because if I had a few Gen Z’er’s personal interpretation and a few Millennial interpretations plus the Artist’s intent then a general interpretation would be relatively easy for me to triangulate.

SO FINALLY

here is how you analysis a song with your personal interpretation

First let the audience know what the Artist’s intent was. This will build credibility for the argument that your personal interpretation is the correct one.

Now present your interpretation

“Bad Guy” is about the singer pretending to be meek and girly in order to attract strong men who have fragile ego’s and can’t handle a real powerful woman.

Then using the lyric’s provide evidence for your position.

If you are actually and objectively trying to answer the Question

What is “Bad Guy” by Billie Eilish about?

Then you will need to provide as many frames of reference as possible.

Gen X will see this song very differently than Gen Z

and then explain what it would mean to them and why

Gen X many of them might remember listening to Aqua’s “barbie girl” for the first time at their child’s birthday party and being horrified to hear their child singing along.

Baby Boomer’s haven’t heard this song

Millennial’s have an awkward position

and Gen Z likely knows about the Artist’s other works and how her process is not just herself but she comes from a musical family… which has impacted the shaping of her lyrics significantly. Billie Eilish is a master of her vocal craft but the source of her lyrics is highly collaborative.

that is the type of analysis I wanted to write but limited on the resource of time.

This is all I can offer at this point.

I tell you what though

If this post gets 100 likes before the end of August 2019

I will carve out the estimated 8-10 hours to do a proper analysis on

What is “Bad Guy” by Billie Eilish about?

Or leave a comment asking for an analysis of any song in the Engrish language and the first to get 10 likes I will give my personal interpretation on.

With Love,

Hngyhngyhppo

Creating Milestones that take less than a mile…

There are many terrible things about being a writer. My gripe today is about milestones and deadlines. While all of these are self imposed and I can change them tomorrow if i felt the need. It is important to use them.

I don’t like it but it is none the less important.

I started writing ages ago and never finished anything. Then in 2017 I was left with only one choice if I wanted to continue to be an entrepreneur and work for myself. I had to write. I don’t want to write… It is not the most enjoyable thing I spend my time doing.

But it is the only thing that I have enough resources and skill at that it was worth pursuing. Also it solved a huge problem in my life.

The lack of decent male orientated novella length pulp fiction. If penguin publishing was still commissioning new or similar series to the Trailsmen then I would never have picked up the pen and instead refined perhaps my programing and game design skills.

But they didn’t and here we are.

My first book took over a year for only about 42K words… I know that I should have been able to finish it sooner but I didn’t know how to do. My second book took six months and my third and best book so far took only four. I should be able to get a book done every three months at a pace of 8k a week and so my next book will be ready by the start of September.

What does this have to do with milestones well I found that these milestones work for me. 600 words take a break. Finish scene take a long break. Keep track of my progress towards my deadline am I behind, ahead of schedule, or right on target.

In school I’ve always been a do it at the last minute type and the fear of failure has been a good focus. But with no publisher and audience breathing down my neck for the next Song of Ice and Fire, I have to manufacture my own fear.

The first thing I do is increase the demanded production to much higher than I can handle. It’s overwhelming but I’ll try to get 8k words done today and another 8k words tomorrow and another 8k after that. I took an extra day off of my part time job that pays my full time bills so that I could have the day to write. This helps keep that pressure on… I enjoy work and the bills it pays. I now have to prove that taking that day was worth forfeiting the steady days pay in exchange for higher production on my novella.

If I’m successful at reaching my word count goals than this book 4 will be draft a month and a half before I expect to publish it. Allowing my more time to edit and apply wordcraft polish before I send her off to the editor. While at the same time will remind me of the extreme work flow that I’m capable of and draw ever closer to my goal of having four more quality novellas done before June of next year.

And gee I wish these words counted but they don’t this distraction has cost me 30 minutes I should be writing,

With love

hngyhngyhppo

Fascism is virtue according to Aristotle

This title does not reflect the views and opinions of myself or any reasonable person.

FASCISM is bad

-HPPO

Now,

Political centrism has gotten a lot of bad press recently and its not going to get better anytime soon.

But political centrism is not the same as fascism

extreme centrism is fascism though.

Political centrism is the people stuck in the middle saying things like we should pay taxes to support roads, education, and cushion the blows of the free market/tragedy against members of our society when they fall on hard times.

Fascism is a large governing body that has extensive and unaccountable control over the nation state that it rules over. The fascists decide who gets a helping hand, where and who builds the roads, and who gets educated in what field. They do this according to their own world view without much input from those being governed.

The right of the political spectrum is not fascist. The further right you go the larger the individuals sphere of influence over the matters in governance. Your town would decide where to build the roads, if to build and maintain a school, and who qualifies for assistance from the taxes raised. You could literally walk into a town hall meeting and demand an increase to the minimum wage, if their are enough people in your community who agree with you and support your proposal. Boom new minimum wage.

The left is not fascist either. The further left you go the smaller an individuals sphere of influence but the larger the scale of policies once enacted. If it would cost your town of 100 to build a road costing $100,000 dollars that is $1,000 per resident but if your road was part of a larger network say 500,000,000 people. The cost per payer for that road is far less than the smallest unit of currency, or the entire thing is paid for by a tax levied on an excess of profits that exists somewhere as a result of the flaws in free market systems.

The far left can lead to fascism because the further left you go the more control you surrender to the whole of the governing body and therefore the more likely that a fascist style government can arise. Once a fascist government has taken control they never give that control back to the lower levels of government, free market forces, or individuals.

The far right can lead to fascism because once fewer restrictions are placed on legal organizations and greater autonomy is given to individuals, the more uncertainty you create. Uncertainty and the Unknown cause individuals, businesses, and groups to become afraid. Fear leads to individuals yielding their authority and autonomy for security. If you’re afraid you’ll starve to death if you don’t accept a job that pays you a slice of avocado toast once a day, you’d probably take that job. And they will continue to shrink the ratio of avocado toast to work preformed until your employer has reached the bare minimum to keep you productive, profitable, and alive. In an effort to create more certainty for themselves, those with the avocado toast will gather as much authority and influence as they can until they have become fascists.

What does this have to do with Aristotle and virtue?

Aristotle defines a virtue as in between two extremes in behavior.

The most common example given is in between cowardice and recklessness lies courage.

Therefore in between the left and the right is the virtue of centrism.

As explained before once a governing body has gone too far left or too far right it will self correct and that governing body will become fascist becoming neither left nor right on the political spectrum, but by strict definition a virtue.

Aristotle virtues must be practiced and are not innate.

It is a practiced virtue to eat only what you need.

To not over-consume or starve yourself.

But if you have no choice in the matter it is not a virtue.

If you never have the opportunity to over eat at a buffet or you are withheld food though famine, then your choice in the quantity consumed is not a virtue.

So if you have the opportunity to make a difference in politics but you do nothing, you are not virtuous

If you don’t have the opportunity to make a difference in politics, you are not virtuous.

If you have both the opportunity and you use it well that the virtue.

Basically stop alienating centrists because they are left or right from you on the spectrum.

How come in 2019 have we come to recognize gender as a spectrum but policy has become binary?

Go with love and grace,

hngyhngyhppo

Resistance through pain.

This has been inspired by two thorns.

A fantastic YouTube video by Storytellers

How To Be Creative: How an Artist Turns Pro

And my current flaring hemorrhoids

The video covers the subject of resistance. The resistance of doing anything but the creative work that you should be doing. Whether that is procrastination, fear, and/or anxiety that prevents you from starting or continuing.

What this hasn’t covered or mentioned is the resistance of being in physical pain.

Everyone has experienced at least a bad day when you haven’t had enough sleep. You’ve forgot to take your caffeine and you’ve got a headache that you know will rob you of the next few hours of work. Bruised and sore muscles.

We can get through our paying gigs just fine. Suffering through these aches and pains without a great loss to the man we are making dollars for. But then when we have the chance to work for ourselves … well … results may vary.

I’ve torn a muscle in my shoulder two hours into an eight hour shift during my first ninety days at a cardboard factory. It’s been two years and there is still of whisper of that muscle that hasn’t been reclaimed reminding me of that I’ve lifted and worked through a 7 on the Stanford Pain Scale. And I’ve experienced a certified 9 as reference.

Right now I’ve got a cough and a hemorrhoid that spikes my pain from 3 to 5. But here I am still getting work done. Tonight when I’m lifting in my warehouse job I might be between a 5 and 7 but that’s not going to stop me there.

So why does this pain stop me when I’m here?

Why then can’t I get work done, pages written, plots thickened, or characters killed, if I’m experiencing anything greater than a 4 on the pain scale?

Why isn’t this type of resistance discussed?

What really burns me through… is how I forget that I was ever in pain to begin with. I was sick last Friday and I couldn’t get more than a single page of a comic script transferred from storyboard to word. Then I spent all Saturday beating myself up about how I’ve wasted a twenty four hour period. Only to have a cough remind me that I was still sick and bring some form of validation for the choice I made.

I know at this point that even taking one day off is disaster to my time frames and deadlines. One day breeds two years and a decade later you’ll be just as unhappy with yourself as your unfinished or unstarted projects.

If your in pain but you do a quality 10%…

Try to be happy with that

rest and heal

Maybe tomorrow you’ll be able to do 15% or more.

But if you start doing 0% the resistance will only grow stronger and you’ll need to be at 110% before you start again.

Wishing you all good health,

Hngyhngyhppo