The Vision

This is the vision that drives me.

This is the change I want to bring forth into the world.

This is what keeps me awake at night and gets me out of bed in the morning.

A world without hunger

A world without poverty

A world without ignorance

Basically Star Trek…

and here’s the nightmare that haunts me…

There are no video game companies in star trek.

There are no marketing companies in star trek.

But worse…

There are no new movies

here’s why

There is no money on earth.

There is no reason for people to work a job they don’t like between robots and replicators

There is no reason to work.

So getting over two hundred people together to light, direct, build sets, design, advertise a movie, video game, etc is just something that won’t happen.

In our reality we are bound together because we have to provide value to receive value. If we don’t work, we don’t eat. We put up with the mundane, dull, soul crushing jobs because that’s what you have to do.

Someone (maybe me) will need to create a model of doing business in the creative field that is fundamentally satisfying without profit incentive. Because I like movies, books, and video games and without the organizational power of a company the quality would be capped at indie film, auto correct, and flash(post 2020 you can read about it in the history books). There are only so many hours in a day and companies create the highest quality because they can leverage the force of a thousand lifetimes onto a single project.

Right now I need more to begin the experiment

and so I’ll continue to work and poor resources into editing and marketing so that I can launch my writing studio and bring this vision into the world.

With Love,

Hngyhngyhppo

Dear Romance Reader,

There is a man in your life who needs a helping hand…

You know one or more of these men they may be your brothers, sons, or friends but they haven’t picked up and read a book in year or more. Perhaps they have abandoned reading for fun somewhere in primary/high school and haven’t gone back to find the wonder and thrills hidden between the pages of a good story.

Whether we are strolling the emerald shores of the Scottish highlands, listening with anticipation for the waves crashing against the cliffs to come to a crescendo as our lovers are about to shed their shame that has kept their lips apart and become as free as the seaside’s misting spray.

Or

Holding the pages clutched tight as we can’t help but feel a burning rage building inside as our heroine becomes blocked, put down, and is faced with an unexpected yet inevitable obstacle barring her from her love. As a reader we desire nothing more than to slap our heroine’s villainous foil across the face and shout “Bitch!” with conviction.

It’s only after we’ve put these books down and look back at the world, at least for me, feel a twinged of guilt.

I want the world to experience this joy. I shouldn’t feel bad I know there exists a good book for everyone…

Sadly here is the problem I need your help to solve.

Every year someone goes without reading a full length novel they have lost reading speed. This is a huge problem for men. During the droughts in my life: The 60 hour work weeks, the 25 credit course loads, the high school activities and responsibilities that demanded more and left no time for a vacation between the pages of a good story. My reading speed fell.

In the time it takes you to be five pages deep, surrounded by the bright sights, calming scents, and rich sounds of a million dollar beach vacation, I’ve barely met our leads…

Blessed by god at the right time in my life I found western pulp fiction.

Small and simple books that are low on description, the author trusting that my imagination could fill in the gaps. Fast paced action preformed by flat almost cardboard-like caricatures that carried me from the initial conflict to the last page.

Soon my speed and concentration were back in form and I could read not just what I wanted but books that I needed to grow as a man, husband, and servant.

We know that books have an impact on not just our emotional health but our future success. They have shaped how we are able to deal with conflict and challenges in our life. Our hearts have been broken and healed by fiction.

If you’ve asked these men why they haven’t read a book and they’ve responded. Something to the effect

“I just haven’t found something that holds my interest.”

What they may be trying to communicate is that their reading speed and concentration is too low to enjoy the greats you know they’d love.

Here’s the shill, For the next 5 days this is free and after that 99 cents is the lowest amazon would let me offer it.

disguised inside the pages of the 180 page action film of words, is a tale about prejudice, acceptance and keeping your promises.

But don’t tell them that.

“This shit’s got a dragon, loads of violence, shape shifting wolves, magic and guns…”

My beta-reader hadn’t picked up a book in two years and now is reading Dune. So I know that if you man gives this junk half a chance they will be back into the written world and finding not only what interests them but what will make them better.

Thank you for your time and attention today,

Now someone you know needs to be sold (free til June 2nd) on this book because this is something they didn’t know they needed in their life until you’ve given it to them.

With Love,

Hngyhngyhppo

Things about dialogue we can’t understand because we read to fast.

I’ve just gotten my manuscript back from a copy-editor. They’ve done a fantastic job. But it has left me a little insecure in a creative choice that I’ve made.

“Rather than use the tradition dialogue format.” Arthur said.

Hppo – “for longer sections of back and forth dialog. He has placed the speaker tag like a play before the dialog.”

“But when there is more than two characters in a given scene as an author and a reader… a rather slow reader. I can get lost on whom is speaking.” Anthony chimed in.

Hppo – “If you’re a fast to moderate reader. You wouldn’t ever notice the speaker comes after the dialog. I mean in English in general we place adjectives before the noun. We say the big red plastic ball. But in Spanish and most other languages they put the noun before the adjectives. They say a ball it’s big, it’s red, it’s also plastic.”

Arthur – “That is the great thing about English though because we put forth the adjectives first when the noun is made clear all the adjectives attach without resistance.” Putting his finger inches from Hppo’s to drill the point into his head. “If you start with a noun… Take a car. Boom, now the audience is thinking about an impala, Lexus, and that one guy in the back is still thinking about his first car a puke lime-green gremlin. It’s harder to get the audience to change their mind and think of the car you wanted to describe after introducing the noun. How easy is it to switch that gremlin he has in his mind to the Dodge charger you wanted to talk about?”

Hppo swatted away an imaginary fly at the end of his nose whipping back his head til Arthur dropped his finger and was ready to listen again.

“Sometimes you’ll know who is talking because of the previous sentence but the point I think he is trying to make with dialog is the speaker is not a noun but an adjective. When you read dialogue and don’t know who is speaking til the he said, she said tag appears after. Your mind doesn’t add the flavor that a dialog can have. Look if you don’t know if Arthur is speaking you don’t add his lisp or if you think Arthur is speaking you add a lisp when in reality Anthony in his soothing but slow baritone is speaking.”

“That’s ridiculous. Dialog has been structured this way for hundreds of years. Readers won’t get lost and add the improper. “FLAVOR” just because the dialog tag has been hidden.” Anthony coughed as Arthur mocked the word flavor.

Anthony – “You can’t see it though because you don’t read as slow as me.”

Arthur – “I read at an average speed.”

Hppo – “But if you did read slower. Maybe you could see that dialog tags after a long sentence don’t give the reader the information they need before they’ve formed their opinion.” Hppo shrugged about to give up.

Anthony slowly worked back Arthur’s logic. “Take your car example this is no different. That one guy in the back of the room is still thinking of his shitty gremlin becuase you’ve said car. What if the reader thought that I were talking in my deep voice only to find out that you with your silly lisp where the speaker. We now have to hope that unlike the gremlin guy they can change all the thoughts they were having to be in line with what I the author was trying to say in the first place.”

Hppo – “You see even with an average reading speed you take all the information in, almost at once, and you haven’t flavored the dialogue with who you thought was speaking and the mannerism they carry. But if you have a slower reading speed you’ll become frustrated because the whole time you were hearing lisps when you should have been hearing something low and soothing. And if you get frustrated you’ll stop reading. If you stop reading you won’t get your reading speed up.”

Arthur – ” What is it that online guru is always saying… You only get better at doing push-ups by doing push-ups… right?” Arthur was coming around. Hppo and Anthony knew that when he started a tangent it was because he was about to change his opinion but make it seem like it was own independent thought and not due to any of the data presented before him. If he just accepted it as true then he would be losing the argument but if he had a eureka moment then he wins the argument by introducing new evidence that supports his brilliant idea. “You can read books about doing push-ups or watch movies and fitness videos but if you don’t do the push-ups you won’t get better at them. But you don’t have to start off with diamond press push-ups if you’re out of shape you can start with incline push-ups against a wall or a table till you’re strong enough to lift your own weight. So by placing the tags before the spoken word you say you’re making an easier push-up so the reader can get stronger , get their reading speed higher.”

Hppo – “I’m glad we could see things your way.”

That’s the problem I know I’m smart enough to justify anything and that’s why I’m a little insecure about this choice. Only time will tell if it is the right one or not.

‘Til then with love,

HngyHngyHppo

Resistance through pain.

This has been inspired by two thorns.

A fantastic YouTube video by Storytellers

How To Be Creative: How an Artist Turns Pro

And my current flaring hemorrhoids

The video covers the subject of resistance. The resistance of doing anything but the creative work that you should be doing. Whether that is procrastination, fear, and/or anxiety that prevents you from starting or continuing.

What this hasn’t covered or mentioned is the resistance of being in physical pain.

Everyone has experienced at least a bad day when you haven’t had enough sleep. You’ve forgot to take your caffeine and you’ve got a headache that you know will rob you of the next few hours of work. Bruised and sore muscles.

We can get through our paying gigs just fine. Suffering through these aches and pains without a great loss to the man we are making dollars for. But then when we have the chance to work for ourselves … well … results may vary.

I’ve torn a muscle in my shoulder two hours into an eight hour shift during my first ninety days at a cardboard factory. It’s been two years and there is still of whisper of that muscle that hasn’t been reclaimed reminding me of that I’ve lifted and worked through a 7 on the Stanford Pain Scale. And I’ve experienced a certified 9 as reference.

Right now I’ve got a cough and a hemorrhoid that spikes my pain from 3 to 5. But here I am still getting work done. Tonight when I’m lifting in my warehouse job I might be between a 5 and 7 but that’s not going to stop me there.

So why does this pain stop me when I’m here?

Why then can’t I get work done, pages written, plots thickened, or characters killed, if I’m experiencing anything greater than a 4 on the pain scale?

Why isn’t this type of resistance discussed?

What really burns me through… is how I forget that I was ever in pain to begin with. I was sick last Friday and I couldn’t get more than a single page of a comic script transferred from storyboard to word. Then I spent all Saturday beating myself up about how I’ve wasted a twenty four hour period. Only to have a cough remind me that I was still sick and bring some form of validation for the choice I made.

I know at this point that even taking one day off is disaster to my time frames and deadlines. One day breeds two years and a decade later you’ll be just as unhappy with yourself as your unfinished or unstarted projects.

If your in pain but you do a quality 10%…

Try to be happy with that

rest and heal

Maybe tomorrow you’ll be able to do 15% or more.

But if you start doing 0% the resistance will only grow stronger and you’ll need to be at 110% before you start again.

Wishing you all good health,

Hngyhngyhppo

Why Hank Pym’s Pocket tank is lighter than you think.

[Spoilers for Ant-Man and Captain America Civil War]

One of my favorite hobbies is retro justifying. Where you apply the logic of a universe to itself in order to justify the impossible and the illogical. This is because I grew up as a star trek fan. And if you don’t “fix” the logic holes your not invested in the Sci part of   Sci-fi.

So onto Hank Pym’s pocket tank.

It’s established within universe that once Ant-Man shrinks down that he hits with the force of a full grown man. He has not lost an ounce of weight. That would mean that the tank Hank Pym carries around on a key-chain weighs about 68 tons. Hank Pym still looks in good shape for his age but I doubt he is hitting the gym hard enough to lift that.

Okay so my answer comes in two parts either may be 100% true or one my be false but if the other is true than the proof still holds.

  1. Hank Pym is and has intentionally or mistakenly lied about the properties of his Pym particles

    2.) Gravity is a property of the Quantum.

Gravity as a property of the Quantum is the easiest explanation since so little is understood about this fundamental force of the universe.

Hank Pym as a liar is far more likely IMHO. First piece of evidence is that if all his particles did was shrink the distance between particles. All you would need to do is apply the same method Edison used to invent the light-bulb. Which is probably the method that Cross attempts. The result of which is vastly different than the pym particle.

These are the properties of the Pym particle as we observe them in Ant-Man

The Pym particle violates the square-cube law.

The Pym particle and the cross particle both require a structure (suit or container) to operate “safely”.

The Pym particle unlike the cross particle is stable and does not leak or decay.

I think the solution to our tank problem is this. The way in which the Pym and cross particle function is that they do not only shrink the distance between particles but that they do this by constructing a lattice throughout the entire unit being shrunk. This lattice creates false particles and negates real particles. By creating false particles within the lattice Scott Lang doesn’t fly away when he is giant and hit by a breeze. Imagine that the Pym particles also can create a way to negate the properties of real particles. So when you shrink down a tank and have the intention that the tank weighs 68 tons to less than 2 ounces the Pym lattice suspends or negates 67.9999375 tons.

The cross particles are not stable and there lattice begins to decay after it is created. The Pym particles are static but manipulated by the regulator on the suit.

This solution fits the throwing disks as well. Since the throwing disk come in two varieties enlarging and shrinking.

The throwing disk after hitting a solid finds the border between the solid and the surrounding air and commences shrinking or enlarging.

This lattice may also act as a membrane allowing Scott Lang to breathe the same amount of oxygen a normal sized Paul Rudd would need. Very effect for when he is small but when he is large. This membrane would be unable to create enough “false” oxygen to feed his giant brain.

This membrane and lattice would also explain why that ugly dog is able to continue to live. Since the Pym membrane and lattice is stable, does not decay, and continually refreshes itself around the borders of its effected object, That ugly dog would ingest a normal amount of food for a dog but only have access to the amount needed for an ant.

TL;DR Hank Pym is a liar

the Pym particle doesn’t simply change the space between particles.

The Pym particle creates a magical lattice and membrane between the shrunk and the world in order to violate the laws of physics.

If you enjoyed this then you might want to read my take on Ready Player One and how the protagonists for both the movie and book are not the same person but work for their medium.

With love,

HngyHngyHppo

How to make something quotable…

The worst thorns are the ones that spring from my imagination and the roses.

-Hppo

I, and you, need a quick guide to creating quotes. But that resource didn’t exist. So I’ll make it myself.

This article will be laid out as follows. First the types of quotes and how they are used for social credit. Second getting your quote properly attributed to you because “anonymous” is not going to drive any traffic your way.

Types of quotes

  1. Asides

  2. Heart strings

  3. Pith/wit

  4. Truism

  5. Guiding

  6. Intelligence

  7. Context

Asides – are the “family guy” type quotes.

Come on. Let’s go. Fox is running one of those new reality shows at 8:00. Fast animals, Slow children.”

  • Peter Griffen

or one of the many

“That reminds me of the time ____” type format

Asides are typically self contained jokes or references that require no context or attribution. The users of these quotes have a handful of these loaded in their brains like bullets to fire whenever the situation is primed for it. The quoter is attempting to score social points by whipping on of these out because if the audience does not no the source material then the quoter gets credit for wit. If the audience knows and enjoys the source material then the quoter gets points for being “hip”, “fleek”, “relevant”, or whatever jargon best describes being “in on it”.

For quoters – Their is a danger of use these types of quotes to often, one quote to many times, or one source of these quotes. Like yesteryear’s fashion you need to stay up to date and keep changing out your handful of quotes to stay relevant.

For writers – These quotes have a short shelf life and by nature they will not drive traffic to you. Because the quoter is not trying to make an “appeal to authority” but instead gain social currency.

Heart Strings- are quick to hit the emotional core of a person

“Shall I compare thee to a summer’s day?”

  • Shakespeare (Sonnet 18)

“Every puppy should have a boy.”

  • Erma Bombeck

“You shall not pass!”

-Gandolf the grey

Heart string quotes do not need to be self contained like asides. These quotes are best received when the source reference is understood and the more points if the source reference was enjoyed. These types of can be repurposed for humor, wit, or a show of intelligence but the reason they have stuck in the mind of a quoter and his audience’s mind is because they pull at the heart strings.

For quoters – these types of quotes will be good in all seasons. You’ll get double points for using the quote for the scenario it was originally intended. But re-purposing the quote for humor or for helping an argument through an appeal to authority will still gain social currency.

For writers – These quotes need a lot of space, time, and care in creating. In LOTR there are very few lines of dialogue surrounding. In sonnet 18 this line sums up the whole poem. And the Erma quote can perform in a vacuum but plays more on the memories and feelings that the audience brings into the work … rather than having to craft an original emotional arc for the audience to experience.

Pith/wit quotes are just that a display by the quoter that they are witty.

“To be or not to be…”

Hamlet

“And now for something completely different”

-John Cleese

“The internet is just a world passing notes in a classroom.”

-Jon Stewart

These like Asides are self contained but the are based in a higher form of humor than brass and self-evident jokes. The quoters are using these for the purpose of making a joke but also to gain intelligence points on their social score card.

For quoters – If you find that your pith quotes are not landing because the audience does not have the same background experience to enjoy a python or daily show reference. Then attribution before the quote will help it land.

For writers – These quotes typically become quotable because they have been repeated so many times. For instance the Hamlet quote is Pith and not Intelligence because it is well understood that the quoter has not read, watched, or understood the play from which it is pulled. The same may be true for the python-ism.

Truisms – are true enough and sum up complex situations into something short and concise.

“Everybody has a plan until they get punched in the mouth.”

-Mike Tyson

“Against logic there is no armor like ignorance.”

-Laurence J. Peter

“You don’t get to choose not to pay a price, you only get to choose which price you pay.”

-Jordan B. Peterson

A good truism is concise and does not need any context surrounding it other than the audiences own life experience. These are supported by empirical evidence alone.

For quoters – These quotes will help in gaining “wisdom” points.

For writers – These quotes are often stolen, repurposed or wrongly attributed. So in your journey I hope you can be content with your truism being blatantly stolen because someone else has far more social credit or fame or authority than you. But if you have to steal a truism, go ahead you have my permission, for no one person can own the truth.

Guiding quotes

“Two roads diverged in a wood, and I —

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.”

-Robert Frost

“Ours is not to question why, ours is to do and die.”

-Alfred Lord Tennyson

“What would Jesus do?”

-Charles Spurgeon

“WWJD” modernized

“Write like a Mother Fucker.”
Cheryl Strayed

I’ve provided three examples all in a similar vain as to guiding one’s actions. These quotes can also be labeled “Inspirational”,”Motivational”, etc, etc. They exist because they help people make decisions or take action. People remember these quotes not because they are well written self contained but because it is a piece of advice that they would like to give themselves or others in the future.

For quoters – These quotes are great to short hand the decision process behind making a choice. Knowing your audience is important to have these quotes land. Don’t need to ask an atheist what would Jesus do or tell a rebel not to ask why. These quotes when used properly will can you the “wisdom” perk among you social crowd. And they are useful for giving advice while distancing yourself from both the impact of the advice itself and ire from if the advice is received poorly.

-If you are using these quotes but you are no longer finding that they actually have an impact on decisions you make you need to scuttle them and replace them with qoutes that do. Or you may find that you’ve become a Preacher who does not Practice.

For writers – These stay in your audiences mind because they are concise, they contain truism, and they have found them useful.

Intelligence quotes are for blowing your own horn. Making an argument from authority or for demonstrating that you are well read, well informed, and thus intelligent.

“The man who does not read has no advantage over the man who cannot read.”

-Mark Twain

“If men learn this, it will implant forgetfulness in their souls…”

-Socrates on the written word

These quotes become quotes because the source of the quote is considered intelligent and therefore the quoter is correlating their own intelligence to the intelligence of the source.

For quoters – These quotes only gain social credit during small talk. Any conversation or relationship longer than thirty minutes these quotes can actually detract from your intelligence score in the mind of your audience. Because the audience knows what your intelligence level is and over use of these types of quotes only shows that you have not made your own decisions but instead are only swayed by authorities.

For writers – Once you have gained fame associated with intelligence than your words will be taken as quotes of intelligence.

Context- carry the full weight of the source behind the quote.

“One does not simply walk into Mordor.”

-Lord of the Rings

“We’re not in Kansas anymore”

-Wizard of Oz

“D’oh”

-The Simpsons

These quotes are a concise summary of the source material and are applicable in many situations to score social credits.

For quoters – These are great as long as the reference is shared and the situation calls for the quote.

For writers – These are chosen by the audience and any attempt to craft one of these as a quote will make it bland/blunt and without the nuance that it needs to have a life cycle as a quote.

Now that you understand some of the types of quotes here are some tips for getting your quotes properly attributed.

First repetition. “As I’ve said before … [quote]”, “I’ve remarked … [quote]”, “I’ve always thought … [quote]”

Second using them for promotional taglines.

“In a world…”

-Movie trailer guy

Third false attribution these will make you seem humble as well. Say someone else with greater credentials or expertise came up with the quote. If your called out then take credit.

“Well I guess it’s mine now..”

Last understand the audience that is likely to quote you. You need to first be an authority so when they make the argument with an appeal to authority that you are cited. Second be really famous then attribution is not required as the quoter and their audience both know you are the source.

Why your independent comic book will not make you rich…

On the heels of Denver’s Independent Comic and Art Expo.

A thorn has been planted in my head

“You don’t get into comics if you want to make money.

You get into comics if you love comics.” -R. Alan Brooks

Well, that’s noble and a terrible, terrible view to have. First it’s demoralizing. Second it’s just not true.

You know what would be accurate and motivating.

“99.9% of people who have made a comic are not millionaires.”

you know what else is true

“99.9% of actors have never been in a Hollywood movie.”

you know what is motivating

“500 books are published a month. 95% of those sell less than 500 copies over their life time”

Why are these motivating?

Because they contain hope

“Hope is the promise of rain tomorrow for the flowers in the field.”

-Hppo

If you go into any industry or venture with the mindset the you will fail. Well you will.

“Whether you think you can, or you think you can’t – you’re right.”

-Henry Ford

This is about mindset.

If you know the problem can be solved you then can solve it. If you enter with the assumption that the problem is not a problem but a fact of reality then you cannot solve it, you won’t even try.

Growth in life, business, and relationships is about finding those problems and solving them. If you do not find the problems you cannot solve them.

If you enter with the presumption that it WILL fail. Well, you won’t be on the look out for problems. And again if you do not find the problems you cannot solve them.

SO FIND YOUR PROBLEMS AND SOLVE THEM.

Get help from someone who has solved that problem, Get an outside perspective.

But do not say to yourself

“Well, there’s nothing I can do?”

Ask yourself

“What am I doing that is working? and what is not?”

and always ask

“Why”

Follow the 4 simple steps outlined

here

.

This has all been inspired by

R. Alan Brooks

and his excellent writers workshop at DINK 2019

He will be teaching at REGIS university this fall on the subject of Comics. And is without a doubt an expert on the subject.

He hosts the podcast Mother F**ker in a Cape. This man has a golden radio voice.

Is on twitter @AlanBrooks_,

He writes one page comics for the Colorado Sun. “What’d I miss?

And his Comic Burning Metronome Vol. 1 is available in trade.

I’ve linked the tattered cover bookstore and not his WordPress site. Which you can purchase on page through a PayPal portal or Via a hidden link to his etsy page.

Now go buy this man’s books and give him the support he needs so that he can focus on making more fantastic stories!!!

Follow him on Twitter

With Love,

Hngyhngyhppo

Reality is a Prism for your mind.

 

Last night i was trying to discuss with a fellow scholar my personal view of the human soul. Most people define the soul as separate from the body. And it is but it isn’t

First I believe in the Holy Trinity, the father, son, and the holy spirit. The clock-maker, The flesh, and the spirit. The mind, the body, and the spirit.

Taken together these three pillars are God.

Taken to a personal scale these three things are your soul.

We do not 100% know where thoughts come from but they are processed through the physical brain. We know that all things radiate invisible energy we can measure but can not with the naked eye perceive, giving us tangible evidence that their are forces outside of our perception the limits of which we do not know… this is spirit. The flesh without thought will be comatose. The flesh without spirit would be what some call today an NPC.

These three forces together are the soul. Your own personal trinity. You must care for each pillar if you want to reach the heights of Buddhist enlightenment.

In order for our souls to grow we must experience this simulation call linear time. Nothing can grow without time. In the infinite expanse of reality beyond our contained simulation, nothing can grow and nothing can die, it is without time past – present – and future. Q and his ilk would inhabit this plain.

My scholar friend told me that the soul is separate from the body because once the body die the soul will depart.

Pondering that

I’ve come up with this analogy.

The body is a Prism.

The mind pure light entering the Prism.

And the spirit is the sun light exiting that prism. Both the viable color bands and invisible infrared that we can measure with tools and those we cannot.

The soul is all three of these things. After the physical Prism breaks, it does not undo the effect that it has had on the entire stream of light.

The sun light can no longer fracture but the fractured won’t become whole.

This is the soul. A concept that is difficult for us to grasp still only having reference of our perceptions and limited by this linear temporal experience.

Hate editing… Editing hates you and your babies

I hate editing.

Do you hate editing? What’s an easy solution to get over the jitters about editing? What technique does HPPO use when self editing?

This answers none of those questions but it made me feel better and it’s true. If it’s true for you. Know you’re not out there alone. Even if you are like physically alone. We all draw from the same well spring and I hope you succeed beyond what that voice in your head says is possible.

I hate editing.

I hate self editing. I hate it even more because I should love it. I love becoming a better version of myself. HPPO version XL.002.G. Season 30 patch 4.3.

When I go back over my work from yesterday or a week ago or a year. It’s how I find those defects, correct them, and become better. But

BUTT

I wonder is this what bulimics see when they look in the mirror during a binge. I see this ink that I spunked from my pen onto the page for your pleasure. In the morning lights crusty stains are staring back at me comparable to the incontinence ramblings of a defecating homeless man.

“Shit in the street left by him will be viewed by more people and have more value than what you’ve accomplished here.”

That voice can shut the fuck SHUT THE FUCK UP.

I’ve being fighting it for 11,240 days every single day going ten rounds or more.

Sometimes WWE style he gets to tag out with social peers, awards, “what my friends think.”, “cool story, bro” and Ronald Mcdonald

and the only one in my corner is myself and the god of Abraham. And like a true heel drop never tags in on my behalf.

Some days we go at it hard. Fight and Fight. Every word corrected a punch bag. Momentum starts to turn the fight. But just when I start to see the belt and the victory. I lose my footing or get hit with that there their they’re triple pairing dick jabs.

Amateur mistake. When did the rules change and this boxing match become a MMA snuggle fuck choking out my will power. “Paragraphs now break with spaces for scrolling moron.”

I curl up and cry. A grown ass man. A GROWN ASS man. Beaten down not by life, I live it rich and happy.

Beaten to tears not by lose, gratitude keeps all that at bay.

But even as I write this poetry. Tears Stream Free.

Beaten by a fucking semi-colon run up my nuts.

You should be better at this. And the last thing I hear before my psyche retreats fully into my fantasy world. Is laughter my doubts secure in the fact that weaknesses still resides in my composure, my work will never be what I want.

ART

can never satisfy the artists need to expose others to their perfect vision. The crystal clear lake atop that Big Rock Candy Mountain.

TL;dr

I hate editing. It hates me back. But it’s necessary. I can not improve if I don’t.

I have to even seek the eyes of others to tell me you done fucked this up.

FUCK YOU

is my response. There was poetry in the original composition. You’re ignorant. You’re the problem. My mastery of the English language is parsecs greater than your degree and experience and reality.

When my bruises heal in the morning.

I’ll show them and while my hands are soft, pampered without callous, my ego is hard as stone.

Sand.

Brittle as tempered glass.

Just the right point of pressure and my whole facade fades fumblefuck.

Tomorrow, I’ll be writing the last scene of the last chapter of issue three.

I’ve been looking forward to this since halfway through writing issue two.

But I need this little glory psyche up session to get ready for editing. After All I will be paying out of pocket for an editor this time around and “nothing hurts more than humiliation coupled with a little money loss.” -revolver.

Revolver (movie) certified fresh as a critical failure.

Here is the translations of the movies quote cards.

Den ärgsten feind findet man dort, wo man ihn zuletzt erwartet.

-Julius Cäsar, 75 v. Chr.

“The greatest enemy will hide in the last place you would ever look.”

-Julius Caesar 75 BC

Man wird nur schlauer, wenn man gegen schlauere Gegner spielt.

-Fundamentals of Chess, 1883

“The only way to get smarter is by playing a smarter opponent.”

-Fundamentals of Chess 1883

“Erste Regel des ge werbes: Beschütze Deine Anlage.

-Etiquette of the Banker, 1775

“First rule of business, protect you investment.”

-Etiquette of the Banker 1775

Kriege können nicht verhindert werden; man kann sie lediglich zum Voteil anderer hinauszögern.

Niccoló Machiavelli, 1502

“There is no avoiding war, it can only be postponed to the advantage of your enemy.”

-Niccolo Machiavelli 1502

SPOILER FREE thoughts

My very first viewing of this movie was roughly in 2011. During my time among the silent service we didn’t have access to the internet but some of the techs had set up a personal area network the PAN where we could load movies, books, TV, music and have our own little library of sorts. So without google it was difficult to choose what to watch on your own.

On name alone I queued “revolver” then I saw Jason Statham with hair and not just hair a gangster mullet. I lost the suspension of disbelief and knew I couldn’t enjoy the rest of the movie so I stopped this movie after the first four minutes because I wasn’t going to like it. And you’re not going to like it either. I jumped forward a few times to see if there was anything worth watching and saw that Andre 3000 had a part in this movie and that got my attention. I will suffer the Jason Statham mullet in the future and watch this later just to see why Benjamin Andre is in this movie.

So I watched it and you should to.

My first viewing went over like this.

It was visually gorgeous. The music, well placed classical chords.

Everything crafted to be as aesthetic pleasing without being complex or distracting. When the movie goes into it’s heavier themes visually it becomes simpler so you’re not distracted and the message is as loud and clear as though through a mega-horn. If you’ve seen SNATCH then you know Guy Ritchie can edit a movie and sections of this movie that take place across multiple scenes, sets, and times are edited and cut together so well that it delivers all the necessary narrative information quickly, entertainingly, and without a lull.

BUT just like every 1/2 star rating after my first viewing

I hated it. I hated Jason’s mullet. I hated the air quotes Complexity. I didn’t believe the characters. I didn’t buy the motivations. My expectations where not met. I did like how it looked though and I did want to at least try to understand what the fuck was going on.

Why did this movie not make any sense?

I like Andre 3000 of OUTKAST because of how he hides lyric genius and contradiction in light pop/rap from the early 2000’s. Whether is “Mrs Jackson” or “Hey Ya!”

Andre 3000 has done a hundred times successfully what this movie is trying to do. He gives the medicine a candy coating, hides the vitamins in a gummy.

Director Guy Ritchie attempts and fails at this.

Now watch this movie, go to sleep and come back for why exactly the people that love this movie shout it’s praise so loud and why those who hate it have no other choice but to hate it. And to answer the question.

Why did this movie not make any sense?

Why as of this articles publication it is rocking a 16% rotten tomatoes score without an audience score.

IMDb has it as a 6.5/10 from 83,538 reviews.

You have to sit though it at least once to understand why critics hate it.

I’ll be here after you do.

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